Quick I know! I’m still definitely low but it doesn’t bother me anymore, which in turn makes the sadness feel less. I have these things to thank. Admitting it. Saying it out loud or even just admitting it to myself “i am depressed” instantly calmed me down. I even told a friend today who asked… Continue reading Feeling a bit better today
Today was difficult. I burst into tears whilst grating some vegan cheez. That’s when you know things are bad. I have nothing to actually be sad about, that’s another clue it’s depression. I’m pretty sure it’s just pregnancy hormones. I was more angry than sad last time. I think I prefer the sadness. I’ve battled… Continue reading I think I’m depressed.
and I want to sleep with her. I won’t! But I want to. In fact… I wanted to last time I was pregnant. Is she my pregnancy crush? I have had 0% sex drive so far in this pregnancy. And still feel mostly sexless and icky… But then I think about her and *ping*. Maybe… Continue reading My ex is visiting on Sunday…
I haven’t felt like writing. I have all these little subjects but haven’t felt up to actually writing about them. Definitely sans motivation at the moment. I keep putting the same things on my “to do” list every day but never cross any of them off. I could happily just stay in bed for a… Continue reading 8 weeks on Saturday
*Cue dramatic music* dum dum duuuuuuum. You read that right. This morning I called my clinic and informed them that I will not be coming in for my 8-week scan, and wanted to know what the protocol was for being discharged without it. The nurse was so taken aback she had to put me on… Continue reading Why I won’t be having an ultrasound scan.
I’ll be 6 weeks pregnant on Saturday. On Tuesday I had a day full of nerves and worry. I took my mum in for exploratory surgery. She had an endoscopy and colonoscopy back to back and was very woozy and sore afterwards, so I stayed over to look after her. But if I’m honest, it… Continue reading Worrying day
In my last post I mentioned that I was experiencing all sorts of “pregnancy” symptoms, but the more I think about it, the more I wonder if it’s mostly medication related. I started getting symptoms early with both previous pregnancies. I put it down to being pregnant with twins the first time, and then being… Continue reading Am I pregnant or just heavily medicated?